On the road again...

Holy crap! Look who came out of blog retirement!! That's right, I'm back! (for now). After having baby #2 I really wanted to focus on raising my two darling children for a while, and I am pretty sure no one was reading my stuff anyhow.  But now, the dust has settled in life a bit and I missed bearing my soul to the Internet! 

Also, it has taken me about 4 months (post partum) to finally realize, I am done being the angry fat chick.  So we are on the road again, the road to wellness.

I don't want to say I have a number in mind when it comes to my actual goal weight, and thinking about almost 100lbs to lose is a little daunting, so the plan for the moment is eating better, much better.  This week I have cut back on calories, mercilessly tracking away via spark people and keeping within a 1700-2000 calories a day range (only because I'm breastfeeding or that would be more like 1200-1500).  As just two days, I had lost 2 lbs already, and I feel great! By eating more fruits and veggies, I can already feel my body gaining more energy, and craving less junk! It's wonderful because if you've been reading all along, you know that sugar is my downfall. Eff off sugar, I don't need you! (ok, maybe just a little bit...) so this is truly a miracle of epic proportions.  I am also drinking a metric fuck ton of water.  Each time I finish a meal, or finish a round of nursing thing 2, I try to chug my 24 oz cup. I currently work out by running to the bathroom every thirty seconds. Ha! But that seriously helps curb the cravings.  My meals are currently looking something like this:
1 cup cereal with 1% milk and fruit in the am, no sugary shit either, we stopped buying any kinds of kid cereal months ago.
crystal light energy or an iced coffee to drink and a granola bar as a snack
a salad with chicken or steak meat and 2-4 cookies ( I still need a little sugar) or a lean cuisine meal for lunch
water, water, water, water
healthy dinner with lots of veggies, mostly new recipes I have gotten from pinterest, peppered in with some oldies, but goodies. And I usually top that off with 1 cup of ice cream (I looooove my desserts, and I usually eat a HUGE bowl of ice cream in a sitting, but have since started eating stuff out of Ethan's little guy dishes to control portion sizes and crazy enough, I am satisfied!!)
Aaaaaand that usually come out to about 2000 calories.

I have been wanting to work out and spent Monday and Tuesday totally depressed because I managed to hurt my knee this weekend, rendering me pretty useless. But I did start walking, quite modestly, Wednesday and again today, and hopefully my knee will get over being lame and heal itself so I can start running 3 days a week.  The plan will eventually work up to running 3 days a week and doing Jillian Michael's 30 day shred 2-3 times a week as well. But, baby steps, yo!

So here it begins. And I freaking mean it this time!