I set out a goal to lose 10 lbs this month, like I did in September. I thought it would be easy. I honestly thought my great motivation and will power would keep up and I would even lose 15 lbs! I felt so strong and so empowered by that first 10 lbs that I thought for sure I could take on the world!
But I can't. Rome, as they say, wasn't built in a day. I didn't gain this weight in a month and it is going to take some time for it to come off. I made a huge mistake in this journey by thinking that I was invincible to all of the dieting pitfalls out there. Like I had magically undone all of the damage and bad habits of a lifetime of eating crap and lethargy! I am human. I. AM. HUMAN!!
I did lose weight this month, a whole 4 lbs, so not bad, I didn't completely fail, but if you know me at all, this is like a huge fail to me. I may as well not have lost anything (I'm so ungrateful!) at all the way I have been feeling. It was a rough start to the month and I knew that that set me back a bit. And my energy levels just tanked around lady week and I kept getting migraines and other nasty headaches too. So hard to try working out when your head feels like a bomb just went off in there! I was also tweaking my workouts and working out less, not really watching my calorie intake, ect! Human. Not bionic woman!
This "failure" has shown me a thing or two, though. That this is a long journey. A marathon, not a sprint, and that I have to learn and grow along the way. I may not always hit my target weight every month and I need to be ok with that. I may need to settle for a smaller goal, I mean, any weight loss, even if it had just been 1 pound, would have still been a step in the right direction! I can do this, and I am doing this! And I'll be dammed if I let my inhibitions hold me back again this month!
So once again I am putting that big 10 number up there. If I hit it, great! Let's celebrate and par-tay!! If not, hopefully my numbers will still be going down! Even 5 lbs will put me at my lightest weight in 4+ years! Just 5! That's an awesome accomplishment! I can be proud of that!
